class placement rants

So I decided to private my blogs for a while because of a few reasons, first because I would like to rant about anything without feeling guilty or anything. Second because I just feel like it. Okay first let's start with the ranting, and let me get started with possibly one of the most boring, people-die-because-of-this-topic topic which is the placement of class next year. Yes, it's boring and yes it doesn't really matter but lately I realised that there's a hidden 'kiasu' in me and I have this urge to want, or maybe specifically I need to be in 5sc1. That and another reason is and possibly quite a personal one is that I feel that I don't fully belong in my current class and I feel a better sense of belonging in 4sc1, surely if someone read this they would go 'Oh, you gerenti ke your friends in 4sc1 go to 5sc1 next year?' well of course I don't guarantee that and I'm positively sure some of them will go to 5sc2 and vice versa but then again perhaps I would feel a bit better in 5sc2 next year like they said 'the grass is greener on the other side' , some people would say 'alaaa takpe, kelas tak penting, yang penting belajar.' Yes of course it didnt but I need to learn in a conducive environment because I'll be sitting my freaking SPM next year. I don't know , I'm 16 and have a major teenage angst and maybe 5sc2 gonna be way more awesome than 5sc1, possibly less pressure and the teachers are more easygoing or something. Maybe just maybe but for now I'll pray that I'll be in 5sc1 next year. End of rant.